Anonymous asked: I'm confused. You have impeccable taste. You write well. You're obviously very intelligent, and if that's you hiding your face in all those photos, you're beautiful to boot. But you seem so down. Try not to be. Please, you're awesome.
It’s me but it’s a filtered, angled, dishonest me in those pictures. They are not reality.
My early twenties were tough. I’m down for so many reasons - men, “career” choices, money, etc. a long list that people always seem to think I should just forget and ‘be happy’. But no one realizes how perpetual my depression is or how intricate. It’s a series based on outright, continual rejection and one I especially believe is tied to what I look like. Which I of course will never be able to change.
Thank you for the compliments, sincerely. Sometimes it’s just easier to be honest to strangers than in person. I’m fairly the opposite of ‘this’ in person because I try to hide this part of me. I’m funny and witty and social but I can’t do it all the time. And i know it’s too bad I put all the bad out here with no contrast, I don’t know if I can be the opposite. My friends think my self- deprecation is funny, comedic, I usually just think I’m the only one strong enough to be honest and at least have a sense of humor about it.